Admired by Me

With all the game you saw.

I thought you would know the words I shared with you were true.
I spoke from the heart and I’m trying to hold you close to my heart, even if I can never have you physically.
You might wonder why ?
The reason might be that for some reason I loved you and only you.
The other relationships were just a figment of a short story
You might wonder why ?
I’ll speak slowly so that you can feel the impact of every word.
It’s ashame because I was the one that would stop time just to get close to you.
Nothing could prevent me from sharing my affection for you.
You might wonder why ?
I sleep with a broken heart, a dead soul and a compromise personality disorder.
I don’t know how I can live this life without love and without you.
It’s not too hard to see why.
I love you.


What’s talent ?
I just see the Bare minimum.
Failure is a routine for the regular.
Im not immuned.
Im abnormal.
Can I be out of this world with my insight ?
I fear none, not even fear itself.
Where my heart lies I can’t elaborate on.
I’m looking up.
Does it feel good to be on top ?
So i take second place keep my hunger on one, waiting for my time.
I don’t take chances.
I’m not second rate.
I’m just on a different level.


Music blasting.
All by my seldom.
Well, at least I have my freedom.
The opposite sex tends to come and go.
Don’t worry about memories.
They drift back and forth.
So at least I got something to grab onto here and there.
I still have the urge for something real.
I’m rich with knowledge.
But, karma was a b*tch.
I remember when she was my b*tch.
Now she’s close to be that b*tch.
All by her lonesome.
Now I’m here all on my own.


Can’t say I care for you
My heart doesn’t miss you.
The temper inside of me building.
Every time you come closer, I feel the tension building.
I thought you were the one for me.
You were perfect, down to its smallest definition.
I guess your in a different place now.
My replacement can fake a smile better then I ever could.
Is that good for you ?
Is that what you want ?
A phony that can’t measure up to the lover I once was.
I’m force to accept the reality for what it is.
I can’t change your beliefs.


I can hear your screams.
Shivers going my body because something isn’t right.
I made a promise to be by your side.
I told you I wouldn’t let anyone harm you.
I did all I could for your love.
I made your heart so much love.
But shame on me because I made you feel so much pain.
What can I say.
I’m the one that caused you to scream.
Now I’m plotting my soul.
What should be my faith.
I broke my code of honor.
I caused harm and inflicted pain on your soul.
It hits me to the core of my existance.
I know I’m wrong.
What’s my faith.

Green Room

Close by.
Close your eyes.
I wanna make you feel comfortable.
It’s all about you.
It’s been a long day.
Now it’s all about you.
I have you all to myself.
Making your wishes comming true is the only thing I live for.
Keep your eyes close.
I wanna Tell you the sweetest things.
You only deserve to hear the truth.
God blessed me with the heart of gentleman.
Thank god I can be gentle to you.
Soft to the touch and easy on my eyes.
I hope you need me because I need you.