Admired by Me

With all the game you saw.

I thought you would know the words I shared with you were true.
I spoke from the heart and I’m trying to hold you close to my heart, even if I can never have you physically.
You might wonder why ?
The reason might be that for some reason I loved you and only you.
The other relationships were just a figment of a short story
You might wonder why ?
I’ll speak slowly so that you can feel the impact of every word.
It’s ashame because I was the one that would stop time just to get close to you.
Nothing could prevent me from sharing my affection for you.
You might wonder why ?
I sleep with a broken heart, a dead soul and a compromise personality disorder.
I don’t know how I can live this life without love and without you.
It’s not too hard to see why.
I love you.

My heart feels complete when your near me.
Your different.
No one makes me feel this way.
If your like what you hear.
Come close.
No one can treat you like I can.
I do more then the next.
I’m not the same.
No they don’t match.
Their pockets are at a lost.
I’m willing to spend.
Money comes and i’m looking for you to go.
I want you.
No one else caught my attention quite like you.
So it’s nothing for me to tell you how I feel.
If you feel the same.
If you want love.
I got all you can ask for.

I’m not the same.
Like no one you ever met.
Count your blessings.
I’m here.
To your rescue.
I can take you away from the regular.
Your to beautiful to get the regular treatment.
As long as I’m here your always going to get all you want. No second guessing it’s all yours.

She’s only here for the good times.
I’m happy to even catch for a simple hi and bye.
She is better then the regular.
She deserves better then what she had.
So I’m trying to show her what she can get.
It’s my time.
I’m not wishing.
I’m a provider.
Anything isn’t good enough when you only working for the best.

You can make me.
I know that I haven’t been honest.
But the truth is I didn’t know what love was.
I only cared for you and i’m afraid to commit when I know you care about me unconditional.

If you can’t love.
I’ll take my time to show you how to love.
One day at a time.
Just understand that I can’t stop trying to make you whole.
You complete me.
You don’t have to say a thing.
It’s not just words if I mean what I say.
Just hold my hand.
Let’s takes this journey together.
It’s all about you .
It’s about me.
It’s about you.
I can’t stop thinking about you.
It’s innate.
You might think I’m lying.
Playing with your emotions
But I wouldn’t do that.
I see something in you.
I might be what I’ve been missing.
Can I spent my days with you.
I’ll only have eyes for you.

You voice brings tears to my eyes.
I see you in my dreams.
I can’t find you.
You fill my dreams and that’s where you reside.
I can’t find you.
I can’t find you.
It’s not easy to life.
No it’s hurts me to live without any love.

There is nothing that I wouldn’t give to be next to you.
I just want.
I need you.
Help me
I can’t live like this

Blood sweat and tears.
I’ll do anything for you to see that I care.
I’m not like the rest.

My words to her heart.
I’m here right where I need to be.
I have nothing If I don’t have you.
What’s complete can break.

Always putting me down.
I know you want to take a bite.
Just to get a taste.
I can’t see you face to care.
My heart doesn’t feel the same anymore.
I’m numb from he truth.
You keep telling me shit and I can’t decipher the truth.
You know I care.
Why hurt me.
If I was your only love.
Why hurt me.

Where do i go from here.
A day hasn’t gone by where I don’t think about you.
I question why you have let me life so soon.
Your all I think about when I sleep.
Your all I want hold when I wake up.
Your still the only one I have ever loved.

Where do I go from here.
Your all I had and now your gone.

Baby I need you now.
Can’t you see I’m just a foolish man with out my other half.
You got me going crazy with the way you move around.

Baby it’s you.
Baby it’s you that I love.
It’s been too long coming.
Far too long.
I know I haven’t been fair to you.
But, I just want to tell you what’s in my heart.
This is exactly how I feel.
see I never loved a person the way I love you.
Baby it’s you.
Your the only one that left an imprint on my heart.
Your the only story worth sharing.

This is only for your ears only.
Listen carefully as I whisper the important pieces of my soul into your vast heart.
Hold me close I want you to hear this.
What I share is for your ears only.
We are young and even when we’re old I’ll treat you as if your a tender queen in her 20’s.

Thought I could love her.
When i turned my face,  she turned her back on me.
Two faced, but I only saw one side.
Hand over my face.
Couldn’t see this day comming.
Loyalty that’s non existence.
World so cold but momma told me it’s like that.
You can’t trust a soul.
If your foolish that’s your fault.
Don’t ever left a person be your demise

I don’t mean to express and burden you.
But who else can I talk too.
I thought I could tell you what’s in my soul.
I met the gold diggers.
Now I’m here digging out out this ditch.

Love Not Coded.

Why does it have to be so hard to see you go ?
I question how unfair it is.
But, that doesn’t change the fact that you will be leaving.
Your face turned away from me.
As you walk away.
Tears just fall down my face.
I can’t see them.
But, I feel them.
It’s too soon.
I still have a lot to explore with you.
We are young and discovering love around this time is priceless.
I appreciate your company.
So much things I have to tell you.
I would do anything to hold you close to me.
To be honest.
I’ll say what ever I need too, in order to keep your company.
I can’t see you leaving me.
Not just yet ?
Who knows when or if I will see you again ?

The Thinkers Words

Is wealth worth the gritty feelings it brings with it ?
I wonder if I had all of my hearts desire, if then I will be content or happy ?
I want to be proud.
I want accountability.
So I question my desires and realistically try to find answers.
The end goals always seems to be a mystery.
But, every good mystery needs witty answers.